Stones

"Create in my a clean heart, Oh God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."

I am so easily pushed over by even the smallest rock in my path. Then comes anger, pounding its ugly fist through my heart, wrecking all my commitments to peach and faithfulness. Sometimes I wonder if I'm growing. I am still determined to overcome - not simply get by. As Peter would say though, after suffering for a little while, Christ himself will restore you and make you whole. Thank God for mercy.

On another note, I am so extremely distraught over these beautiful pearls that have been entrusted to us. At first I wasn't sure I could really love them, and just when my heart decided it would be empty without them, they are leaving. I could withstand any grief, however, if I only KNEW they would be safe. In one situation, they feel abandoned by the people who are supposed to be there for them no matter what, in the other, they are exposed to so many dangers. I'm so glad this choice is not up to us, I can only pray, pray, pray. God, keep your hand of love over them!

200 days!

Actually it's 192 days, but close enough. Yes, I have succumbed. I never thought I would be one of those brides who meticulously counts the days before she says "I do." I also swore I would never give in and make a "wedding website." Can't people just RSVP the old fashioned way? Curse the internet for being so dang convenient! Haha, but what am I complaining about? I'm loving this! Every day I get more and more excited for the day when mine becomes forever ours!

In the meantime, I have plenty to distract me from too many thoughts of a blissfully wedded life. Every day I wonder how I will make it through 12 or 14 hours straight, but God's grace abounds. I am always so nervous about my lessons, but they are always fantastic! One of my students wants to talk about fertility drugs!! I'm not exactly sure why she does, but it's interesting because I seem to be having LOTS of random conversation involving the female reproductive system, etc. Seriously? I'm loving it!